www.chrisdarbro.com – Chris Darbro

Im sure many of you have. I want to let out a sigh. then a growl. then a sigh. then a growl. I think if I keep that up and sigh inward, I might be able to avoid losing air. who knows. I’ve noticed Ive done a lot of blog posts this past month. many more than I prolly have in the last 4 or 5 months I think. Which is just about when it hit me. It’s amazing how many things in my life are tied to bigger ones, this example being that I noticed that the reason I started this site originally, the reason I have been blogging a lot lately, the reason behind every speed ticket ive ever gotten, and much more is all for the same reason. and for the 1 or 2 of you that know the real reason Ive gotten my speeding tickets (besides speeding), pretty much know a good secret about me know and how to manipulate me at will. haha. eh……meh. that describes me. Im a little weird, and feeling lost in the world right now, it blows. Along with the fact that lately life feels like a race, and I cant compete with some people. Part of that is kind of by choice. Im not some spoiled loaded guy. I’ve worked hard for all that I’ve got, and will continue to do so for the things I want. I am me. But sometimes people make me feel like that just isnt enough. I’d do more, provide more if I could, but that’s just not possible, I dont have things handed to me on a silver platter like some people. Rich kids piss me off. They take everything from granted. Put me and some rich punk in the same room with something that we both claim means the world to us and ask us to give up everything we have for it. Watch the kid get nervous and then watch me as I dont think twice and give it all up. Doesnt matter if I have a dollar in my pocket or a million. The things that mean the most to me come first, Whether it’s friends, family, whatever. I cant just throw money around to sway people’s influences and get what I want. but I’ll work hard to get those things, you can be sure of that. Sometimes I just feel like that’s not something people value anymore these days. I know one day Im going to do something great. I believe I’ll do a lot of somethings great. and be well off. But there’s a road to get there, it’d be nice to just be plopped into that position, but that’s not how it works, and even if I was, that doesnt change me, or how big or strong my heart is and will always be. I hope someday I have a lot more people in my life that love that about me and want to be part of that. Seems in this decade people have become more materialistic. It’s sad. And no, before anyone jumps to conclusions, this blog post isnt about anyone or anything, I just wanted something to blog about today to keep up my pace of blogs lately, and jason and I were talking, and he was mentioning things he’s hated about his past with girls, and said something like “dont you hate it when you are the type to give a girl your heart and do anything for her and all that mushy stuff, only to have some guycome along and give her a gold watch and she rides away in his bmw saying I like what we have and wouldnt want to ruin that” or something like that. that sounds pretty crappy, I hope that wasnt something that happened to him for real, that’s pretty messed up. haha. Anyway, there’s what ‘grinds my gears.’ lol. Anyway, time to head to work, busy day tomorrow too, but my weekend starts tomorrow night, im hoping I have a good one, that’d be nice. guess we’ll wait and see. Im out! (Like Big Hair and Spandex, Suckas!)