www.chrisdarbro.com – Chris Darbro

Yeah, yeah, I know, I dont have the pics up yet.
I’ve got like half of them all ready to go, but
I dont wanna put half of them up now, and then
put up the other half later, I’d prefer to put
them all up at once. So, for now, if you havent
checked out the moblog yet, do so, there’s a few
pics on there (few=50+) that you can check out
if ya want. Today’s heading/lyric comes from the
same new vanessa carlton song as the last one,
“white houses”. I dont know if it’s on the radio
yet, should be soon, keep your ears open, it’s an
awesome song. Speaking of new songs, also keep
your ears open for the new hit from Ryan Cabrera,
called “On the way down”. It’s actually not that
new, the song has been around since april or so,
it’s just not been as popular till now. He’s kind
of like john mayer, but a little bit more rock?
I guess that’s the best way I could put it right
now, he’s also Ashlee
Simpson’s boyfriend, and you can
see her in the music video for that song. Moving on,
I had to go drop off and pick up my brother at the
county fair yesterday, and remembered missy’s photo’s
and some of her mom’s dresses were entered, so I stuck
around and decided to check them out, they were
all awesome, as I went in expecting them to be. hehe.
the fair itself seemed pretty tame, but then again
[a] it’s tooele, and [b] I think anything would seem
tame compared to my last 2 weeks. Anyway, went to
SLC today to meet with some friends, it was fun, we
mainly just chilled out discussing post vegas tales
with each other and those who werent there. The
story of my knee came up and I whipped it out and
showed everyone how grotesque it really was. (I was
kind enough to wait till they were done eating.)
stupid knee. past few days, everytime someone asked
me how it was doing, and I’d say ‘oh it’s doing fine’,
etc, and end up jinxing it and hurting it worse later.
So perhaps I’ll just start being honest about it,
“yes, it hurts like hell, yes, it’s pretty gross,
yes, it IS hard to walk when there’s a hole in your
knee.” I used to bound up stairs 2 at a time, and
havent been able to, being the energetic guy I am, I
kind of miss that. Anyway. (WARNING: here comes a
tangent)…

If we didnt make mistakes, would we be
human at all? I mean, think about it, wouldnt life
be weird, and maybe even a bit pointless, if no one
ever made mistakes of any kind? It’s not that im
advocating everyone make mistakes, Im not, Im just
saying that making them is what makes us human, and
there’s not much that can be done about that. When
you dwell on them, what does that accomplish? Not
much of anything when it comes right down to it, you
can’t go back in the past and change the way things
happened no matter how hard you try. I know, I spent
EVERY DAY of the past 5-6 months dwelling on a few
possible ones I had made. There honestly wasnt one
single day I didnt think about those mistakes, living
day in day out with the pain and consequences, when
it’s just a few days or weeks it’s one thing, but
dealing with those pains and regrets and mistakes
every single day for 5 – 6 months is a whole different
ball game, and those stats are’nt an exaggeration
by any means. It wasnt until a week or so ago I
realized how pointless dwelling on it all was.
I then decided to just find something that made
me happy, and go after it, instead of trying to
make everyone else happy like I always try to do.
Amazingly, I was able to stop dwelling on the past,
for the very first time in 5-6 months. (part of it
might have been I was so focused on my job in vegas,
but most of it was that I decided to make me happy
for once) and I stopped dwelling. and when I realized
that and started thinking about it again, instead
of thinking about mistakes and regret, I thought about
the future instead, focus on the future, dont dwell
on the past, and I think you can make yourself a happier
person. Im not in the greatest spot in life right now,
but I at least have a cheerier disposition about it,
and that’s probably better for everyone. I dont know
what my future holds, where it’s gonna go, where I’ll be.

But I know what I want it to hold, where I want it to
go, where I want to be, and the people I’d like to
bring along the way on my rise to success. Friends,
Family, etc, I know who I want there, and I want to
share all of it with them. I’ve learned so much in the
past 5 months or so, and changed so much for the better
as a person, learned from the mistakes I’ve made, matured,
I definitly am sincerly sorry with all my heart and being
about my mistakes of my past, but now I focus on how to
keep bettering myself, and all that I have to offer, and
now it’s out on the table for anyone that wants it. I am
strong, I am strong willed, strong minded, I will settle
for nothing less than success, and I shall never compromise
myself, my character, my traits, my glory, my romanticism,
my chivalrousness, everything I am, nothing will ever
compromise those parts of me ever again, they are who I am,
and who I will always be, always and forever, and I invite
you, the reader of my blog, my life, my being, to follow
me on this path, my path, to my success.

*whew*. I totally went off a lot longer than I thought I
would there, sorry. Heck, I even strayed from where I
originally planned on going with that tangent. But there
are parts of it that will make sense to some, parts of it
that will make sense to others, and I think as a whole, it’ll
make sense to everyone else who knows me and reads it.
I’ve thought about writing a book. as you can tell I love
to write. I also love to do music, and I love photography,
and I love to entertain. perhaps I need to focus all those
skills into producing an album. hehe. Anyway. For those of
you still reading this at this point who havent fallen
asleep yet, I’ll just go ahead and end this post here for
now.I’ll try to get pics up as soon as I get them all done.
Check back soon