www.chrisdarbro.com - Chris Darbro

Oh man, the rain outside tonight was awesome. It
was great to watch and listen to. I just sat out
on the porch with my kitty and her kittens and
watched and listened to the rain and lightning
for a little bit, it was great. One thing I forgot
to mention about last weekend: I registered to Vote!
I was feeling pretty good about that, im not sure on
which candidate yet, but I feel it’s my duty to vote,
and so I shall, although this election disturbs me a
little. It’s the only election I can think of where
the majority of the voters are voting simply because
they dont want the other candidate to win, which is
kind of screwed up in my opinion. They’ve even been
campaigning that way, I rememeber watching the
republican national convention, and seeing the go on
and on about how terrible they thought kerry was.
And it’s not just the republican party, the democrats
are just as guilty. Stop telling us why we shouldnt
vote for the other candidate, and instead, tell us
why we should vote for you instead, and how we know
you’re any better off than the bad things you made out
about the other candidate. Meh. anyway. My root canal
went alright today, I didnt really feel a thing, it
was actually the best dental visit I’ve had in quite
a long time. And as far as rants on this site earlier
this week, I think they’ve settled down now, which is
great, it’s better that it was able to be talked out
honestly between both parties, so I’m pretty glad.
There’s more I think was gonna say today, but [a] I’m
too tired, and [b] Im on too much lortab right now to
keep my thoughts straight, I might end up divulging
information or saying things without intending to, as
I’ve already done that once tonight. heh. so, uh, yeah,
im out of here. time for bed. nite.

K, so I had planned on mentioning my alright day
here, but something else has come up. When I wrote
my last post, I was worried some people might take
it the wrong way, or take offense because I was a bit
too ‘honest’. Turns out it was taken the wrong way,
just in a way I didnt expect. I received a lot of
feedback about it, by people in person, by people
via instant messenger, and even an email. I was
pretty shocked, because no one ever gives that much
feedback on anything I’ve written on here, just the
casual ‘hey, read such and such the other day,
it’s cool you have a blog, yada yada. fun to read
and know what’s goin on’. But it was weird, everyone
started to assume they knew what or who I was talking
about at any given time in that post, and Im still not
mentioning if any of them were right or not, but it was
weird to see a bunch of people stick up for me or defend
me about something I had no clue they even cared about.
On the other hand, as flattering as it is to know you
have good friends, it really wasnt a smart approach to
the matter, and might have made other people pissed off
or something, which was not my intent by any means.
It’s not like I was talking a bunch of crap on anyone,
I was just saying how I felt about something, which,
I was pretty vague about at the time, (or at least
I had thought so), and it was intrepreted many ways.
I surely dont want any bad blood between anyone, and
would prefer to see everyone happy and getting along.
I think a lot of this nonsense came about because of
lack of communication by a few parties involved, which
strikes me as funny because ‘lack of communication’ on
the other side’s part was one of the main causes of the
problem originally, way back when it first started. I
hate when that happens with people, it’s pretty sad to
see, that’s why I usually am pretty honest, about most
anything and everything, who I am, my thoughts on anything,
anything. I just dont have anything to hide really, and
havent for months now, my life has moved in a new direction,
and I’ve moved with it, as hard as the change was and is
sometimes. But that has it’s rhyme and reason, and I accept
it. Ive moved on, my life’s much different, (to an extent,
different paced life, same ol lovable chris :), but that’s
not gonna stop me from voicing my opinion on something or
someone being a bit hypocritical or just not even realizing
what’s coming out of their mouths sometimes without truly
giving it some thought before they say it. I dont know.
All I know is, as far as this matter goes, instead of people
taking it into their own hands, or defending me on a hitch,
they should come talk to me first, and I’d be glad to talk
about any of it with them, I cant say they’re wrong, but it’s
not fair of me to call them right either, I know they’ve heard
both parties’ side of the story, and I know mine was as honest
as could be, and that they’ve likely made their decisions about
my or the other parties character or themselves as a person.
I dont know, nor do I care at this point, I think im kinda goin
in circles, this isnt all that important, but needed to be
addressed, and should there be any questions about it, ask
me personally, and I’ll do the best I can.

Moving On….

So, I was at work today, and I usually leave my messenger open,
so people can contact me or leave me a message on it if needed.
I wasnt having a particularly great day, until I looked over
at my computer and noticed that someone had messaged me. I
opened it, and read the following:

“Hey cutie! I know you aren’t on but i just wanted to tell you how awsome
of a person you are. I was having a bad day last night and just talking to
you made it all the better. Also that i hope you have a wonderful day
today and smile lots. Love ya tonz. Bye bye. (I’ll call you later tonight
if that is okay. Other wise give me a call sometime.) ”

and instantly smiled. It’s fun to get something random,
spontaneous and fun like that from a friend, im not gonna
mention who she is if she’d rather not be mentioned, but
she knows she wrote it and will probably see this later.
So to her I say thanx for making my day and cheering me
up, I coudl use the cheering up, because all I can keep
thinkin about is my root canal im supposed to have tomorrow.
bleh. that’s gonna super suck. hopefully I get some really
good pain killers, better than these lortabs I have now,
cause they arent doing all that well for me lately. Anyway,
I’m probably gonna go now, but like I mentioned, if anyone
needs to talk to me, feel free, Im here. Whether by IM,
e-mail, telephone, or snail mail.

It’s usually better to update this when I’m not in
a bad mood, but right now, I honestly just dont
give a damn. Im going to vent, cause I feel like
venting, even if in the end I dont come out and
state why it is or what it is exactly that im
venting about (which I have a feeling might happen.)
and yes, I did just in fact say ‘damn’ in my blog.
“whoa!” you might say, but I just dont care. You want
to know who I am? I’ll tell you, and this will be
the most honest blog post you’ve read in a long time.
mainly because im not going to hold anything back, and
im going to say exctly what’s on my mind, and I dont
care if it ruins my ‘kind, nice guy’ image a bit.
Yeah, I am kind, I truly am a nice guy. I’m a very
compassionate and caring person as well. But when
it comes to this blog I’ve been way too nice, kept
my image way too clean, and I do that with people all
the time, I just have way too much patience with people
and am too nice to them, even when it’s the last thing
they deserve, because I cant bring myself to be a jerk
to them, but I just dont care anymore. If you couldnt
already tell, I’m a little bit pissed off right now.
Especially with a few certain people. And as much as I’d
like to throw in their face how hypocritical and full
of crap and backstabbing they are, I’m going to let this
one individual slide for now, because I know bringing it
up and pointing it out to the person wont accomplish
anything, and would make things worse, this is just
one of those people where im better off knowing what NOT
to say. So in this case im just going to keep quiet, take
a deep breath, and move along. There’s also one other person
on my shit list right now, and since I dont know them all
that well, I have no respect or care for their well being
right now, and should I see them any time soon, I’m likely
to let my irish temper take over and beat the living shit
out of them, regardless of any of the consequences. They’ve
indirectly pushed the wrong buttons with me today, and now
I’m rather fed up. And since I dont care at this point,
I consider this rant fair warning to them, whether they
ever visit my site or not. Moving on. I did end up going
to the dentist the other day, Im going to have to have a
root canal this wednesday. That’s gonna suck. or so I keep
hearing, as I’ve never actually had one before. Until then
I’ve been on some lortabs and antibiotics. The lortabs are
great, the antibiotics suck, they taste disgusting, and I
can taste them for almost 30 min after I’ve swallowed them.
Went to the X96/Sony Big Ass Show this weekend, it was fun,
I’ve gone every year for the past 6 years. There were some
awesome bands there, including Hoobastank, Sum41, Lit,
Lost Prophets, Goldfinger, Story of the year, and a few others.
It was a pretty good show. For now im just gonna go curl
up in my covers in bed, the one place that throughout my
troubles makes me feel great, even if I am super pissed off.
I’ve got to be up at 6am, I might as well get a hew hours
of shut eye at least, and try to make it a half decent or
enjoyable few hours. As long as I dont have that one
particular dream I have every so often, that scares me
sometimes, I’ll have to talk about it sometime, or if you
ever see me, just ask, and I just might divulge it you.
night.